makemebones89

Back on track =]

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 23:02:31 GMT

Hey everyone =]

So I haven’t posted in a while and thought I should leave an update.

When I go home I am forced to eat and always gain weight. I have my mum watching me like a hawk, no scales and have to eat a meal almost every night with the family. I went home for nearly a month for easter but have been back in uni for over 2 weeks now.

I am really pleased with how today has gone. I have not eaten anything and have only drunk water. I know most of you do this on a daily basis but being at home set me back a lot. My biggest achievement is that I now drink just water. Since I was a kid, water on its own has made me gag and I’ve always used low calorie diluted juice, having unwanted calories. Now I don’t have it at all, meaning I can have totally calorie free days =]

Tomorrow, because I haven’t fasted in a while, I am going to have a piece of dry brown toast in the morning to give me energy and some fibre, to stop my body storing. That’s about 100 cals, but that will be my limit..

I’ll let you know how it goes…

How are you all doing anyway? Leave me some comments and let me know =D

Good Luck, Stay Strong

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crap crap crap day

Wed, 20 Feb 2008 21:19:24 GMT

Today went tits up from the fucking beginning.

I was all proper ready for my fast and really excited to complete it. Woke up this morning feeling really drowsy.. thought I was just tierd so went to work experience.. got there and went really light headed, and ended up bein sick and had to come home.

My friends force fed me, which came back up anyway.. and have made me each something now, and stayed with me for ages. unfortunatly its stayed down.. and i feel so annoyed with myself for letting them...

On top of that my boyfriend is pissed off with me for fucking nothing and I am so bloody angry with him... well at the minute I am and I am feeling pretty homesick.

overall emotions are everywhere and I'm a moaning bitch haha

FAST WILL START TOMORO..

leave me some love please ladies

love you all

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I fucking hate Tuesdays...

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 20:32:18 GMT

Today was going fantastic... up untill 6pm...

I hadn't eaten anything all day and was really pleased.. then it all went downhill. The chocolate machine gave out waaaaaay too many bars to my friend.. so she gave some out. I shoved mine into my bag to forget about it and found it when I got back....

I don't know what was wrong with me I couldnt leave it. that was the start of my downfall.. I ate the whole bar.. and then took food of someone in the kitchen. I purged as much as I could untill I went lightheaded and couldn't do it anymore and hope I got the most of it...

Starting a 3 day fast tomoro, hope I can stick to it. I've never done more than two days.

wish me luck and anyone that wants to join me... feel free =]

anyone with MSN want to give me their address... especially if you're on a fast and can offer any tips

love you all... stay strong =]

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Where are you all...?

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 15:58:55 GMT

You all seem to have vanished... come back I need support..

Anyway... I didn't post yesterday, and to be honest I think its because I ate. I had a Boost bar and went over my limit.. I was absolulty gutted, especially as I wanted to cut down even more for a few days. My boyfriend is coming up tonight and he'll be keeping a close eye one me so I'm going to have to work extra hard... stupid Valentine's Day...

So today has been going ok, just hope it stays that way... how are you all? Any tips on alcohol or anything for me?

I won't be on for a few days, seeing as my boyfriend will be here and I hope to have heard from more of you when I'm back hehe

Happy Valentine's girlies.. good luck with chocolates and meals..even if you're not with someone

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Tuesday's are never fantastic

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 23:57:42 GMT

Ok, so don't really know why I'm doing this but I find it helps when I come on here each day, I get alot of drive and insperation from you lot =] so thank you

anyway... today I've had a pack of walkers backed crisps 99cals... a piece of chocolate.. no idea how many cals and a hand sized blob of pasta and tuna... I needed some energy... this was more than I wanted but I don't think I did too bad. .. let me know.

I can't understand how you girls are fnding it so difficult to reach your guidline of water intake.... seriously, take lucozade bottles or something full everywhere you go so if you get hungry you can just gulp... take as much as you want... beauty of oversized bags hehe.. celebs got it right from the start.

I was so pleased today, I havn't seen a girl on my course for about 3 weeks and the first thing she said to me today was... wow you look so thin.. especially your face.

She's one of those that speaks the truth aswell... oh yea

My bloody shift keys have fucked so I can't get any question marks, brackets or anything.. annoying

leave me some comments girls and any guys I'm starting to thing you're all vanishing

loves

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kind of pleased

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 17:54:58 GMT

So after the disaster that was Christmas I had to cut down again before I could start a fast, otherwise my body goes into major shock... tried it a few years ago.

anyway, having 500 cals a day is a piece of piss and I'm enjoying it all again, sure it's difficult with friends and family and hall mates, but I've managed to get myself into a good routine, that can easily be altered. I'm thinking that it won't be long untill a proper fast. I kno this doesn't sound like much but after being pretty much force fed and gaining so much weight, this is fantastic. I thought my family had fucked up everything but I'm back on track

hope you are all ok and any one with msn let me kno so I can have your address and someone to relate to and help me

Favorite object in my life: lucozade sport bottles....
I drink so much more water with them and I can make sure I've always got drink when I'm out incase I get hungry.

Being a student I'm expected to go out alot so just wondering if any of you know which alcoholic drinks are lowest in calories and any ideas on sambuca as far as calorie intake goes

leave me some comments please

love
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Scared

Sat, 08 Dec 2007 02:05:15 GMT

I'm terrified about Christmas..
*The chocolates,
*The food presents,
*The christmas fucking dinner

How the hell can I avoid the dinner?
Help me please?
I know you are all in the same situation , so tips for all
Ok, so I eat a maximum of once a day now, Crash dieting was screwing my head and body, so I'm restricting more. I thought I was ready for the fast, my body seriously disagreed. I feel fantastic tho, of course I'm still not happy, but that will take a while. So any tips on Christmas will be fantastic, I'm ruining all this work for one stupid day...
Exercise is getting harder to because of the weather, everywher is so muddy I can't run...
Anyone know how many calories you burn from the pump it up dvd, it's my last resort

Stay strong

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Still getting used to LJ

Tue, 27 Nov 2007 17:20:25 GMT

So I havn't had anything to eat today... yet... I'm dreading later.. I'm bound to get hungry and don't want to spoil a perfect day. I'm going for a run in a bit... found somewhere to go where people don't judge me... might take my mind off food aswell.

I've lost 12lbs in under two weeks, I am so proud.. only problem is that my best friend has noticed. It's one thing hiding not eating from him, but hiding the fact my jeans don't fit is another matter. Being a student is shit.. I can't afford new jeans and untill I do, I'm getting the third degree.

Feel free to add me as a friend or something.

*The difference between want and need is self control*
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I need mia

Wed, 31 Oct 2007 23:15:43 GMT

I need to someone to encourage me with this, swap emails, tips, you get the idea let me know!

I started at 13, testing if you like, know im in uni, and living on my own, i have fewer people to convince, it is brilliant, still need help tho, and still need help with the realistic goals, i wil take it much more serious, i need to guidlines,

so other newbies to the livejournal thing, come and talk, share ideas and everything

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